Post gig buzz, it's 2 am and I can't even think about sleeping. Tonight I played what I think was one of the best gigs my band have ever played. I am in so much pain from all the head banging. I was such a sweaty mess on that stage but it was ace!
This week has been a bit weird. I woke up on Wednesday with the blues and haven't been able to shake them off. Like a monkey on my back, I am also an over emotional, snsitive person. Ask any of my family. I am crier alright. So I have cried this week, a lot! I feel like something has to come out of me, everytime I play anything on the piano I start to cry. Pfffft I don't know. Do you get like that? Does everyone? The blues just hit for no real reason? So anyway, in an attempt to feel brighter I made a huge diagram of 'my life' and it actually made me feel TONS BETTER. I titled it "My Wonderful Life" and wrote down all the amazing things that I am so lucky to have. Number one on that list is my amazing boyfriend. What a guy.
I want to share my wonderful life with you all but I feel this album is definately not the wonderful side I am looking for. This album is a list of scars with a few tiny smidgens of wonderful life in there but mainly battle scars. Maybe a change in direction... although I do find it hard to write when I am happy and SO FUCKING EASY to write when I am pissed off. When I am angry or frustrated the first thing I think of doing is writing a song. Hmmmm... maybe not.
Anyway, this is my 2am ramble. If you read it then I am sorry for taking that 20 seconds of your time from you. Take a song from me to make up for it :)
R xxxxx