What are you? What would you rather be?
When I am not performing (which is usually during the hours of 1pm and 6pm i.e. when I wake up until I go to a gig) I usually dress in trackie bottoms, trainers, a baggy jumper, my current fav being dubbed 'the granny jumper', hair up in a bun and absolutely no make up on. That is it. Honest and raw. Every freckle, vein and pore exposed. I am comfy that way. I think I am saying THIS IS ME, IF YOU LIKE ME IT'S BECAUSE YOU HAVE SEEN ME AND DECIDED FOR YOURSELF. I try to be as honest as possible in my life, especially to MYSELF. Anyway, then I need to tart this shit up a bit to play a gig, no one wants to look at a muso-bum-tramp! So I do my hair (wash my hair) and shovel the make up on. A process I thoroughly enjoy doing to be honest! I sometimes do it just when I am bored. I am a werido. So, I am going for a version of myself that is a little more asthetically pleasing, I am making an effort. Last night I played a gig and there was a mix of folk on the bill. I was really impressed by the musicianship and talent on that stage. There was the raw straight up in your face talent mixed with a huge dose of really held back, practised, polished and prefect-ified (new word!) performances.
When it comes to my music though I feel that I am still sitting at that keyboard in my joggies. I've ripped a bit, just a bit, of my heart out and thew it into the audience to inspect. If I don't function like this I really can't do it at all. If I don't be totally true to myself, which involves a factor of not caring what people are thinking about the music, then I'd perform like a blown up doll, always checking myself, questioning my movements. EVERY SONG means the world to me, some a little more than others but like having children, you still gotta love the wee fuckers as much as the cute ones.
I ain't on no express train to the top, no fast track to success course. I must be real. I must be real.
Thanks for reading! You make it feel real! x
When I am not performing (which is usually during the hours of 1pm and 6pm i.e. when I wake up until I go to a gig) I usually dress in trackie bottoms, trainers, a baggy jumper, my current fav being dubbed 'the granny jumper', hair up in a bun and absolutely no make up on. That is it. Honest and raw. Every freckle, vein and pore exposed. I am comfy that way. I think I am saying THIS IS ME, IF YOU LIKE ME IT'S BECAUSE YOU HAVE SEEN ME AND DECIDED FOR YOURSELF. I try to be as honest as possible in my life, especially to MYSELF. Anyway, then I need to tart this shit up a bit to play a gig, no one wants to look at a muso-bum-tramp! So I do my hair (wash my hair) and shovel the make up on. A process I thoroughly enjoy doing to be honest! I sometimes do it just when I am bored. I am a werido. So, I am going for a version of myself that is a little more asthetically pleasing, I am making an effort. Last night I played a gig and there was a mix of folk on the bill. I was really impressed by the musicianship and talent on that stage. There was the raw straight up in your face talent mixed with a huge dose of really held back, practised, polished and prefect-ified (new word!) performances.
When it comes to my music though I feel that I am still sitting at that keyboard in my joggies. I've ripped a bit, just a bit, of my heart out and thew it into the audience to inspect. If I don't function like this I really can't do it at all. If I don't be totally true to myself, which involves a factor of not caring what people are thinking about the music, then I'd perform like a blown up doll, always checking myself, questioning my movements. EVERY SONG means the world to me, some a little more than others but like having children, you still gotta love the wee fuckers as much as the cute ones.
I ain't on no express train to the top, no fast track to success course. I must be real. I must be real.
Thanks for reading! You make it feel real! x